Hey there! Happy Tuesday! I woke up this morning in a bit of a funk. It was a dreary and snowy/icy day yesterday, and those are not my favorite days. But, the sun is shining, I’m alive and breathing, and have successfully shifted my mindset. A few years ago I would not have been able to do that, but now I know what to do do get myself out of those spaces.
To get myself out of my funk this morning I decided to think about where I am currently, and what my life is like. Then I got to thinking that I’m going to be 30 in 4 MONTHS! I am closing out my 20s, and starting a whole new chapter of my life.
Because of the Internet I’m able to see all the people around me in my age group that are getting married, having babies, moving in with their partner, and I’m not doing any of those things – I just moved in with myself! No I’m not rich, in fact money is a huge stressor in my life, I’m not working in my field currently, and I don’t have any “long term” goals, but I’m happy in my life. There will always be things to stress me out, but its all about how I manage my feelings and how I deal with the stress. Also, yeah, to be honest it would be nice to be in a place in my life where I was starting a family, or even thinking about it, but that’s not where I am and that’s ok. There is no timeline for when things happen in everyone’s lives, and everyone is different. So I’m going to keep on keeping on, and what will happen will happen 🙂
SO, this morning, I decided that I want to make these last few months EPIC! I’m going to continue pushing myself out of my comfort zone, trying new things, making new friends, seeing new places, and doing what I can to stay present while planning for the future. It can be so easy to be consumed by the stresses of life. The bills, the jobs, the feeling stuck, but those stresses are going to be there no matter what – its up to us to decide HOW WE LIVE OUR LIVES. I don’t want to look back at this time in my life, and all I have are complaints, frustrations, and turning down opportunities out of fear. I’m going to live my life as fully as possible, and keep the positivity flowing.
I am completely aware that I won’t feel this way 24/7. I will still have low times, and I still think its important to allow myself to feel that, but not to dwell in it. I will still stress about bills, and still wonder why I’m not becoming a mom now like so many of my friends are, or why I haven’t hustled harder to get the things I’ve been dreaming about for so long. But, I’m doing what I can do! I’m where I’m supposed to be, and doing the things I’m supposed to be doing now. I believe both that everything happens for a reason, and that the things I want will come with hard work and not letting my fears hold me back.
So cheers to this chapter of my life coming to an end, and an infinite amount of opportunity and life changing experiences ahead of me, to current and new friends, to my CR-V Gravity who has 102,000 miles on her and is still going strong, to the air in my lungs, and the time I’ve spent getting myself to this place now 🙂 I am completely happy with where I am in life, and it is completely up to me to continue to be happy.
To wrap up, I’m completely full of feelings, my body is stronger than ever, I’m not afraid to push myself physically or emotionally, and so so so excited for all the things coming up in life!
Also I bought a Chemex and some AMAZING coffee from Kaldi’s, and its pretty much perfect. Toodles!