Ohp. Been a minute! Or quite a few minutes. I’m going through a thing. A thing that I suppose could be called a phase, but it comes in waves (usually each day), and I have decided to just flow through it for now. I don’t want this to become a place of posts that look similar, and I feel like my life through this quarantine has all been blurred into one day because its all the same thing. I have plans for posts that could actually benefit you, and are more than these journal posts, but I haven’t been motivated! Also, I haven’t been able to get adequate photos to accompany said posts, which could be remedied, but again, not motivated. I haven’t even been motivated for these posts let alone posts that actually do something. Ugh. Y’all.
For a couple weeks I’ve been settling into my work routine. This is the first week of the official “St. Louis is kind of starting to open things up again” openings, but I don’t have high hopes, and I’m not changing how I’m living life. I’m still just going to work when I have to be in the shop, wearing a mask there and everywhere, and keeping to myself. We’re doing our best to stay distanced in the shop, and wearing masks and sanitizing like crazy. While its nice to have a routine, its still isn’t ideal. I’m only in the shop from about 12-3 each work day, which feels good to be there and helping the business and earning my salary, but its also right in the middle of the day and divides my day in a weird and unproductive way. My morning is spent getting a workout in and being available for work, and then I get home around 3:20 and it feels like that should be dinner time so I have trouble re-focusing to get RWP work done.
Welcome to a peek into my brain the last few weeks! 🙂
I’ve not been drinking coffee lately. I found it heightens my anxiety, but tea has been a life saver, and a sanity saver. I still have the ritual of making the drink, in the morning it wakes me up, in the afternoon it keeps me going, and in the evening it relaxes me. I’ve been sleeping much better lately, and I think this change has played a part. Also, I FINALLY got my order of chai from a company I’ve fallen in love with in Toronto. They’re called Chaiwala, and they’re a couple that lives the van life around the world, sharing their adventures on YouTube! I dream of this, and they’ve inspired me to make changes in my life the way it is now with minimizing material things, living intentionally, and being open to opportunities. They’re vegan, and while I don’t necessarily want that, they have also been inspiring me to pay more attention to what I’m eating, and to focus more on plant based foods. I’m loving it!
This is a shorter post. It was a ramble, and to be honest I’m posting this partly because its been a couple weeks since my last post… That’s not a good way of thinking, but it is what it is.
Another part of this post is to say a big THANK YOU to all of you out there who are keeping tabs! This is the first time in the history of RWP that even when I’m not posting for a week or two I’m still getting visitors each day!!! That’s so awesome! I will say I have built (and nurtured) some amazing friendships from all of this. People need people, and even when, in normal times, I treasure my alone time, I’ve been needing affection, comfort, and love however I can get it. Seems like we’re all feeling that, and it has opened everyone up to reaching out to people we otherwise wouldn’t. So that’s a huge plus.
So, to sum up:
I’m feeling things
I’m uninspired, but working to change that
I’m grateful, but sometimes frustrated
I’m thankful, and excited for the future
I’m rambling, and better constructed posts are coming soon
Also, I have new pages in the works that include things y’all have been asking for! Woot!