journey, Life

December 2021

Well hey there hi there! Its been a while! 

Life has been pretty crazy and amazing the last couple months. I haven’t posted much, because the process of starting the new job and Denny moving in has taken up all of my mental and physical time and space. All of it has been absolutely amazing, but I haven’t had the time to sit down and work on my writing, and when there has been time for it, I haven’t wanted to sit in front of a screen to write after sitting in front of a screen working all day. 

Now that its been over a month since starting this new job and I’ve gone through the onboarding and am now diving into the role, I’m starting to feel like I have space in my mind to come back here. I’m going to use this month of December to plan, write, and schedule things out for the beginning of the year. 

Some things might look familiar as I set my goals for 2022, but unlike last year, I’m in a much better place mentally to take on some of these things. This year (2021), I was scrambling. I was restless, broke, struggling, and unable to actually stick to anything for the long-term. I’m not exaggerating when I say this new job is actually changing my life. I’m in a place in life where I can actually start making my dreams come true, and I now work for a company that I am falling completely in love with and am blown away by the work they are doing! I can see myself setting with this company, and making it my home for a long time. 

I knew nothing about the senior living industry before Sherpa was on my radar. At the print shop, we would print business cards and marketing materials for Sherpa so I knew they existed, and I knew they were in some kind of sales, and I knew they were in the senior living industry, but that was it. I had no clue what a CRM was, or how a training team was incorporated. While it was overwhelming in the moment, I am incredibly grateful for their onboarding process, and taking the time to teach me about the product, the culture, and to meet each team before learning the role. I will go into more detail later on 🙂 

One thing that has taken a toll is my emotional eating, and letting lack of motivation in fitness get the better of me. I’ve definitely gained some weight, and I’m struggling with my self image right now. On one side I’m dong my best to be kind to myself, and understand that the last couple months have been really stressful. I’m getting myself back on track, and this new body will be back to how I want it in no time. On the other side, I’ve been really hard on myself lately for letting myself get off track in the first place, and I’m sure this mindset isn’t helping the cortisol levels go down. I’m basically swinging back and forth between the two all the time. 

Working from home has helped with my eating. I probably snack a bit too much, but I’m eating 3 healthy meals intuitively, and the snacking I do is on the healthier side. I no longer eat when I’m feeling bored. The REAL struggle has been getting my workouts in. Moving my body. The dress has weaseled its way into my physical self, and the exhaustion has brought my motivation to an all time low with no way to call up discipline to help. It also doesn’t help that I have the hardest time getting out of bed when Denny is there to snuggle with. The weekends are rough with eating and drinking. As the world is opening up, me and Denny are going to concerts, hanging out with friends, and drinking socially is something we’re very good at 🙂 And when that happens so do the food cravings! Usually pizza. Yum. 

Anyway, I wanted to check in to let you know I’m still here, and I am working towards consistent posting and showing up in the ways that I want instead of how I feel I should be. I don’t know what next year looks like, but I know it will be full of love, adventure, more change, and even though I know it won’t always be easy, it will always be worth it. If you’re still following this blog, I have so much love for you and your patience with me as I navigated 2021 as gracefully as I could. I didn’t think I was as much of a mess as I was at the time, but wow looking back, I’m so glad I’ve made the changes I have. And now, let’s get ready to rock 2022, and see what great things come out of it! 

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